The daily to-do: Wednesday Aug 3

Oh god we’re getting into crunch-time. I just woke up about an hour and a half ago from a super-long nap. Last night, the plan was for me to go shopping and for Bear to take a late bus to the area I was shopping in. The plan was that he’d be there around 9pm, and I’d be done with my shopping around then too, and we’d both just go home. Well, 9pm came and went and he hadn’t left yet, and wasn’t planning on leaving any time soon, so I just came home and had a late dinner by myself. I mostly stayed awake, until the very end when Bear was already in his Uber on the way home. He got home after 1am. Then he stayed awake awhile to decompress, and I got a second wind, I guess. When we finally went to bed around 3am, I was unable to fall asleep for a long time. I think the anxiety and the weird sleep patterns (and maybe the fact that I had a cup of tea around 11pm?) just got to me, and I think I finally fell asleep somewhere in the 4am hour. So this morning we “slept in” until 7:20, but I was like a zombie. When I got home from taking bear to the train, I fed Cosmo and then went back to bed. Was planning only to sleep an hour, but when my alarm went off I just turned it off and didn’t bother to reset it. Resultingly, I woke up around 11:20. Oh well.

Today is much affected by the weirdness of last night. In addition to the late start that I’m getting, there are several things I had been counting on going over with Bear last night that just didn’t get done. This is bringing my stress level to a new high: these things should have been addressed days ago, and now I’m concerned that we’re going to come to regret our lapse. Say, for example, when the rest of the family goes on the ferry ride and Bear and I, having not made up our minds about whether we wanted to go and subsequently failed to get tickets in time, will be left out with nothing else to do. Oh well. Oh well, oh well.

Can’t even remember or wrap my head around what else I have to do today. Finally did that shopping yesterday, and it was awesome. I got some great dresses and shoes. I look forward to planning my trip wardrobe! Meanwhile, the list will help me get it together today: Continue reading “The daily to-do: Wednesday Aug 3”


The daily to-do: Wednesday June 29

Starting this Tuesday night just ’cause I have some things on my mind. Today (Tuesday) was pretty good. There were two separate occasions (once in the afternoon, and once just now, at 10:30pm) when I looked around and breathed deeply and thought to myself, “Wow, my home is a beautiful, peaceful place.” Rarely am I impressed in this way; usually I get so caught up in my own head that I am unable to really perceive my surroundings. It was pretty amazing. I don’t expect that the perception will prevail, but I will try to hold on to the memory, and maybe I can capture the experience again.

Update, Wednesday morning: Bear was up working last night until around 3am, and I managed to convince him this morning to work from home today. I think it will be good for him. He has been working so hard, rarely relaxing, not getting enough sleep…it’s just not healthy. So this morning, after waking up early and deciding he’d WFH, we slept in until 8:30 and then I made us a big weekend-style breakfast. He’s on a conference call now.

So, on the schedule for today…:  Continue reading “The daily to-do: Wednesday June 29”

The daily to-do: Wednesday June 8

Trying something a little different to day, to help ensure Cosmo eats: I’m going to do the morning walk, but I fed him first. Yesterday he choked it down between bouts of panting after the walk, and I felt so bad! Anyway, today isn’t going to be as hot, so the delay shouldn’t cause it to get too hot outside meantime.

We’re all ready to go now, but first I wanted to jot down some items on my list:

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